True Freedom Fellowship

Melissa

No Longer Common

I am a product of the generational curse of substance abuse.  It was patterned before me in the life of my mother and of my own free will and choice, I chose to wrap those chains around myself.  I have also been able to see God move in the life of my mother in that she has been reconciled not only to Him, but to me as well.  She was broken and only doing what made sense to her where she was at, at that time.  I used to have the mindset that I had the right to be ashamed of her and I swore by the motto that I would never be like her.  I forgot for a time that I was not better than her and that God gave me to her and her to me as part of His divine purpose…chains and all.  Freedom was to be had…for the both of us. 

As a part of my addictive nature I also became addicted to some bad and destructive behaviors, like blaming my mother and others in my life for my bad attitudes, or my callous way of treating people.  I believed that I had a right to treat her or others like that because of the way my life had turned out, because of the things I had been through, because of my circumstances. 

I am quickly reminded by the Holy Spirit though that I do not have the right to make that excuse for my behavior.  I am reminded that I am not a saint and that my mistakes and sins have also drastically affected other’s lives.  I am reminded that I am a mother, full of flaws too.  However, I am forgiven, by my mother, by those I have hurt and by my Abba Father, the One who I call Lord.  To remain living any other way, making excuses for my behavior because of my past, my childhood, my circumstances or what others have done to me makes me a lukewarm Christian, ineffective in His Kingdom.  That is far from what His divine purpose is for me to be. 

God has been reminding me of His Word is Jeremiah 29:11-14.  “Child”, He says, “silence the lies of the serpent and listen to me.  I know the plans I have for you, they are plans for good and not for disaster.  To give you a future and a hope.  Look for me wholeheartedly and you will find me.  I’ve ended your captivity and restored your fortunes.  In order for you to be able to live eternally.”  He continues speaking to me with “Trust in me with thine heart and lean not into thine own understanding, in all ways acknowledge me and I shall direct your path”, Proverbs 3:5-6.  “Child of mine, live with the purpose of me, die for me, therefore, whether you live or die you will forever be mine”.  Romans 14:8

After that truth, straight from the Father to me, who am I to resume my valley mentality and put on the chain of oppression?  In Christ, yes, I am an addict, addicted to His freedom! No discipline seems pleasant at the time, but it produces a harvest of righteousness and peace. (Hebrews 12:11)

I am addicted to the peace that comes in knowing that in Christ lives all the fullness of God, so I am complete through my union with Him, who is the head over every ruler and authority.  I am circumcised spiritually, called to cut away the sinful nature.  I was buried with Christ when I was baptized and with Him I was raised to new life.  God has canceled the record of charges against me and taken it away by nailing it to the cross.  Therefore, no other may condemn me for placing my life within the palm of God’s hand. Colossians 2:9-14

I am no longer common, but I am God’s very own.  I am not alone. 

If you need prayer or someone who will understand because they have been there you can contact me at melbg82@yahoo.com.